tired...

I'm exhausted. I started a blog earlier for my rants and ravings, because I had come across something in my blog travels that brought up something that I thought was over and done with. It made me angry all over again. I'm tired of going from peaceful to angry in 1.364 seconds, tired of my stomach clenching and tying itself in knots from that first rush of emotion, tired of feeling these same feelings that I've been trying to shake off. I'm tired of rehashing the same arguments over and over in my head that flew right over the head of the person they were directed at. I'm done being angry.

I do not and will not regret one word that I said. I feel very strongly that everything I said was true, whether or not the person I said it to acknowledges that. I feel that my loyalties lie exactly where they should, and that is with my own beliefs and convictions about what is right, and what is completely crazy and unforgivably messed-up.

It's times like this when I am so thankful to have the husband that I have. It's a recurring theme around here, how much I love him. I called him today from work to tell him how exhausted I feel, and how dissatisfied I am with my job right now.. and I came home to a nice hot bubble bath, with candles, and some of my favorite comfort foods. He also sent me a sweet email to help cheer me up, and that almost made me cry! I am thankful every day for the miracle that made him mine.